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[05 Sep 2006|05:55pm] |
okay another month and i didnt update in a long time
but ive been busy...my classes are pretty easy
but i have one hard class omg my teacher gives us
like 20 pages to read from the text book a night ahh
i cant even like READ it i just kinda stare at it and
tell my self read=] everythings going pretty good works
okay ya know...its work
me and omar have been together a YEAR=] god weve been
through so much i love himmmmm<3
we didnt do anything for our anniversary though so
i told him nov 1 we can czu ill have my license that
we can actually do somehing together like go out
or something like that...but yeah he got me a cute card
<333
okay i have to clean=]
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[06 Aug 2006|11:19pm] |
okay i know, its been a long time i keep telling myself im gonna keep up with this shit but its kinda hard lol
im a GAP slave. i work like 24/7 but its okay cuz
i do it so i can have money to spend on whatever
i want=] lol um ive been with omar for 11 months
almost a year...damn thats a LONG time we have our
days but he tells me thats normal hahahha its funny
we both think were fuckin dr phil i love it,
but i love him even if we fight sometimes
i start school in like less then TEN days ahhh
i dont wanna go back to school at all, but
i get my license kindaaa soon so thatll be exciting
THEN CHRISTMAS okay i know im getting a little ahead
of myself whatever i dont care hahah...my familys
good nick n tina n rex live here rex is their HUGE
pitbull but hes so nice hes got a big melon head and
he just climbs up on u like hes little but hes not
chrissys a little crazy with school and shit but shes
doing good...wednesday im going shopping with my mommy and
omar im excited i think well have a good day=]i dont realy
see him much i hope thatll change soon though maybe
when school starts
<3333333333
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[16 Jul 2006|08:45pm] |
i have a job! at gap lol not exactly the most
exciting thing but money is money and its really
not that bad i trained friday n saturday today
i like hung shit up n all that...everyones pretty
nice there.
My brother got here friday holy shit i have never
seen so much shit in my life...omg i dont know
where him n tina got all the shit they have from
or where the fuck its gonna go in their house lol
but its okay i love them<3
omars okay idk i think everythings kinda going
downhill for us...u know when u just get that
uneasy feeling about something...yeah well i have
that feeling with us i mean i love him just yeah
idk things are different and trying to talk to him
is like talking to a fucking wall and it just
pisses me off even more then i already was so i just
say fuck it. anywayy his birthday is soon
so i guess i should get on getting him something lol
<33333
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[12 Jul 2006|04:50pm] |
today i cleaned out my closet!
it felt good to like throw shit out i dont
wear=] hahah but i got two bags full of
clothes and that means theres room for new ones
i started school shopping i got brown like bum capri
things from guess and 2 black t shirts from there and
a turquise zip up thats really cute! and i got a plain
black tank top and i got capris.
i have an interview on thursday [tomorrow] for baby gap
im kinda nervous...cuz ya knowww its an interview! hahah
and i think omars gonna come over after school and before work
my brother will be here friday GREAT. the whole fuckin D'Angelo family
in south carolina=] hahahah actually it might be better then im thinking
it will be. tinas been down for a while..i loveee her!
well this entry was pretty pointless but its okayy<3
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[07 Jul 2006|07:59pm] |
god my summers almost over...i start school back up august 14 a little later then last year so thats good and my internet and phone line are all fucked up right now...but im on my dads labtop.
i really need a job like really i need money omg lol i feel bad asking my parents for money when i can be working making my own money...ill get a job before school starts though definately...well tina got here wednesday around 11 and me n my dad went to her house and unpacked the truck and all that shit then i stayed there with her like all day to put stuff away and all that. shes so nice i love herrr! lol and my sisters birthday was thursday my dads is monday and then lamars birthday is the 15
ahh so many birthdays in july lol
so my brother knows about omar and he wasnt that mad...i mean really i dont care what he thinks hes not my dad and his opinion matters but as long as my dad is okay with it then idc so yeah...and my dad told my sister that if my brother said anything about it hed set him straight, that makes me so happy cuz that makes me know that my dad is supporting me so yeahh.
<333333333
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[27 Jun 2006|09:58pm] |
i just got my ears pierced hahaha
i got my third hole and my cartiledge done
again i was soo nervous! but its oakyy
next month i start babysitting for this lady
i make 10 an hour so i should be good and
next wednesday tina [brothers girlfriend] will
be here im kinda excited kinda nervous
but its whateverrrrrrr...everythings good
summers like more then half over already!
god its going by so fast but thats oaky
talked to lauren a couple nights ago and today
i love her=] lol i love when we talk cuz
shes so understanding and i love
hearing her stories about everything lol
god shes changed so much lol but i know
i can always count on her=] and i talk to
amanda everydayyyyyyyy love her hahah
thats kinda it every now and then i talk to
bec or reg or er its nice talking to them
i miss them too lots and lotss!
but omar should be calling me soon=]
so im gonna go but im gonna make this a habit
to update!
love love<3
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[19 Jun 2006|09:30am] |
right now it is 9:30am and im at work with my sister
boring.
but i have to babysit this little boy while my sisters in class, and i help her out at work and she pays me so i dont really care that much...i just hate waking up early. So im not going to NY because my brother and his girlfriend are moving here in JULY omg im so not excited for that=[ anyone that knowns my brother knows hes a LITTLE overprotective of me especially when it comes to boysss and i guess eventually im gonna have to tell him about omar too which makes everything worse.
Im pretty pissed im not going to be able to go to NY i mean i could go in August, but i have no where to stay cuz my brother will be down here and i was really looking forward to seeing everyone cuz ive lost touch with most, not by choice though. its just how it is i mean i still talk to everyone every once in a while but not on a regualar basis. And ill be working soon just babysitting for this lady...but shes rich lol and ill be making a lot of money so its okay, and babysitting is much easier then a real job. im trying to save my money though so that i can like show my parents that i can be responsible and all that...and ill need a car in like 4 months so, i reallllly need to save it lol.
And omars birthday is july 27 and hell be 18 so i want it to be special for him because his mom doesnt celebrate and i know he wont get anything, so im gonna make it special=]
The other day my mom and I were driving through old bluffton, thats like the kinda historic part of the town and i was looking around at everything and it finally hit me that this is my home this is where i live. It was a weird feeling an almost unreal feeling, as if im still on a long spring break down here with my sister. And as im looking around in my head i keep thinking this is south carolina, not new york and i live here and im happy. Not as happy as i was in NY but i am content with my life. Ive come to realize that there will always be something missing...you cant have it all. Out of everything, i miss having my best friends by my side the most. Its weird at this age...i cant seem to find girls like i had in NY cuz most of them i knew for so long that i didnt have to explain to my life and my past and my flaws they just knew, because they were there with me through it all. And at times when i think about everything or when i fight with omar...i wish i could just pick up my phone and call them, but itd be weird right? because i cant even remember the last time i talked to one of them on the phone.
well by next summer ill have a car and my license and all that...so if omar and i are still together i think well drive up because hell be done school and he can drive too so we can drive up and get a hotel room and go to the city and i could just show him my roots=] i think thatd be nice
and i keep telling myself im going to update this more often because i wanna be able to look back at this when im older and just remember everything that happened in my life when i was a teenager.
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[26 May 2006|11:10am] |
ITS SUMMER!
my last day of school was wednesday,
thank god...after school marisa
omar zac kevin and deon came here
we chiledddd. Then me marisa and rashel
went to the pool and swam and tanned
and all that lol then yesterday
me and marisa went to the beach at 10 to 5
omg i got SO burnt but its okay...kinda
it hurts=[ but yeah...im out of school
my brother might move here in july which
would pretty much suck. but whateverrrr
i think im going to NY on jjune 23 to July 7
im so pumped to see my girlssss=[ i miss them all
so so so much! but yeah i know me and omar
are going to be fighting cuz we have trust issues
i love him so much<33333
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[07 May 2006|09:26am] |
okay i promise im gonna update this thing
just to look back on it one day...
im almost done with school
i finish may 24 im pretty pumped
and then im gonna go to New York
in june i think...and yeah.
Next thursday my brothers coming here, with his
new girlfriend so far all i know is shes 25,
her names Tina she has brown hair lives in albany
and she does modeling lol but
me n my dad are surprising my mom
for mothers day...she thinks my brothers coming down in
june not may=] so yeah i hope shes happy about that
friday i went out to eat with marisa and mabel
it was nice we talked a lot about
like everything...and then me n marisa came back
to my house and just hung out and layed in my bed
oh yeah and i had to get a shot cuz i got the bottom
pierced of my belly button and it got really infected
and i dont even know why and i have to take medicine for it
ugh its outta control.
yesterday was a bad day...i got into a HUGE fight
with omar and i was crying and he was mad and i was
mad and ugh it was just bad lol
today im going shopping=] my favorite thing and im
excited cuz i <3 shopping and ill come home and i guess
i should work on one of my projects thats due
like next week i think? idk
<33333
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[15 Apr 2006|10:21am] |
im on spring break...the weather this week has been SO nice
but its so fucking hot omg lol almost annoying
but its nice when youre tanning or at the beach and stuff
i go back to school on tuesday=[
and then only about a month left of school
which is so good! hahah i cant wait for it to
be over,
so ive seen omar once this whole spring break
because hes been with his friends and shit...
and i understand you wanna hang out with youre friends
but he doesnt call and he went to a club
and that made me so fucking mad, you go to clubs
to dance and shit yeah
and he doesnt understand why i get mad, hes
pretty thick headed if you ask me
we almost broke up friday because
we'd been fighting a lot about him being with his
friends n shit, and he called me at like 130am and he was
like we should just break up if you think i dont love you
or care about you and i was crying and he was like
so i guess were both single now and i was still crying
not really saying anything and he was like baby am
i single and i was like i dont know u tel me
we ened up not breaking up
but hes gonna be 18 this summer
so i can already see whats gonna happen then.
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[11 Apr 2006|09:40am] |
im on spring break!
okay it kinda sucks though
theres nothing to do around here
its so boring...
but im done with school soon so
its okay and ill be going to
new york over the summer
so im pretty pumped for thatt<3
i went to atlanta april 6&7 for a field trip
it was fun...i shopped a lot lol
evertime we got on the bus to go
somewhere though we got lost=[
my teachers dumb lol
i havent seen omar since wednesday
kool. hes been with his friends
since thursday and he hasnt called me
so whatever...oh and to top it off
last night he went to a club
so he could dance with a million girls=]
im so mad at him i dont
even wanna see him.
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[31 Mar 2006|09:11pm] |
its been a while since ive updated
things are going good,
next week is my last week before
im on spring break...but i dont
have anything planned which kinda suckss
and i think omars going to florida to see his brother
so i wont be hanging out with him all that
much i guess=[
yesterday i went over to his house
and we got into the BIGGEST fight ever
ugh it was so bad i was crying for a good
hour or so, and then he said soory
but i told him he cant scream n shit at me
and then have me cry like that and
come back an hour later, say sorry and expect
everything to be okay...because its not, and
i want him to know its not okay for
him to treat me like that...so yeah.
i love him though, hes so good to me
and caring and loving and hes just
amazing=]
summers gonna be here before i know it
and i end school june 1
and then im drivin to NY around june 16
and ill fly back down and in august
were driving up to PA to see my aunt
before she moves to italy! lucky=[
our new house should be done soon too
im pretty excited for that cuz its in a
nice neighborhood
with a pool n tennis court n basketball
n gym and spa shit so im pretty pumped
i hope for summer my friends will come down
here wed have funnn!
well this is getting too long and im
talking to amanda right now waiting
for omar to get off work
so<3333
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[19 Mar 2006|09:14am] |
this weekend wasnt good
friday i didnt do anything...just stayed
in i talked to reg for a while
that was nice i miss her
she was like my everyday buddy...haha
we were always with eachother!
spring break is coming up
and reg n er might come
i wish bec could come cuz she comes
every year=[ but shes too sick.
Me and omar faught the whole weekend
and we didnt hang out, and
he couldnt call either...sweet
because hes with his friends or w.e
and that pisses me off a lott
that he cant even fucking call but w.e
and then yesterday we were supposed to hang out
but he stayed with his friends again
i dont even want to hang out with him
today im so pissed at him.
My mom said our new house should be done
in like 2 months...thats really soon lol
im kinda excited cuz its nice in there
schools almost done too...i just got a report
card i had 2 As and 2 Bs which is good=]
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[12 Mar 2006|01:44pm] |
i havent updated this thing in so long
everyting is pretty good
i feel like everything is moving so fast
spring break is almost here...ALREADY!
im almost done with school
which means summers almost here
everything...so fast.
its so sunny and like hot here already too
kinda weird cuz if i was in NY
itd still be pretty cold
maybe in the 50-60s
omar and i are doing good=]
i love him hes a sweetyy<3
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[08 Feb 2006|05:49pm] |
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Today's my birthday...
I'm 16=]
i was so excited for this...haha to be 16 for no reason
my dads in ATL right now and my moms getting her hair done
this morning i was in the WORST mood ever
then omar gave me my present...its adorable
its a ring and i love it<3
Friday- amandas coming down!!! eeee im so excited i love her hahahah
and omar n david are taking us out to eat...sweeeet
then saturday night were celebrating with my family
and going to Kuramas...its like gasho they cook the food in front of you
and all that stuff=]
I wanted to have a sweet 16 in NY but i guess im learning to let it go
that i dont live there anymore...and all the people who i thought were going
to be my best friends forever wont be. but im beginning to accept it.
so yeah...
well i need to clean and im on the phone with amanda
love<33
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[30 Jan 2006|09:51am] |
I havent wrote in here in a while...kinda
im in class right now. bored out of my mind=]
everythings going good...
i went on a field trip to ACE its like boces its a vocational school
and im thinking about going there...but im just gonna apply
because you need to be accpeted so if i decide i really
wanna go...i can and if not i can get out of it too.
but i wanna go for cosmetology
but if i stay at bluffton, my mom wants me to get the
enhanced diploma...which means i have to double up on like most classes
but im doing pretty good in school so far.
i like my classes for the most part...my only really hard class is
chemistry honors so yeah.
my birthdays in 9 days and amandas coming in 11
im excited im getting my bottom belly button pierced
and i ordered my straightener yesterday=]
and i dont know what else im getting...so yeah
Basically life is good. no drama as of right now lol
sometimes i really wish my friends from new york
would fly down here or i could go there when i needed them most
or they needed me. i mean i know i can talk to most of them and
cry to them if i had to. but i barely talk to any of them any more
which makes me really sad...i miss them and just being around them sometimes
but i cant do anything about it so yeah im just complaining on here
omars good...i love him=]
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[17 Jan 2006|10:31pm] |
things are good right noww
amandas coming down soon
im pretty pumpeddd
...even better my birthdays soon!
okay and things with me n omar are good
except for all these stupid bitches
on myspace...messaging me telling me hes cheating on me
with her (the girl lives in Mass) shes just jealous=]
fuck her and the other ones too lol
he emailed this...and i only read it like 90843249 million
times a day=]
lisa baby u mean so much to me i will not break-up with u because of something like that i was saying o u might dump me but i love u i hope we last baby cause i really love being with u spendin time with u and just bein your man i feel like we have something special and i dont wanna lose that with u ima go to bed cause this shit makin me think and im getting sad YEA IM GETTIN SAD (BUT BABY HOW EVER WE END UP IMA STILL LOVE U CAUSE U MY BOO) GOODNIGHT BABY kiss kiss ima call u when i wake up i promise
<333333
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[15 Jan 2006|09:32pm] |
Tomorrows my moms birthday
we went out to eat tonight at some resteraunt.
friday i stayed here and slept i was really tired for some reason
saturday marisa was here with me...we went tanning and shit
then we tried sleeping but the wind here was like 23953248 million miles an hour...
so yeah that didnt happen.
omar was supposed to call me back
and he didnt.
so we called them and blah blah blah
they were being assholes so yeah
then we showered and omar came at like 915 to get us
and we went to jordans
yeah nothing special happened there.
im really fucking mad right now
beacuse...
MY STRAIGHTENER BROKE!
and that just really fucking pisses me off=]
im tired right now, but i figured id update so yeah
love<33
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[13 Jan 2006|09:56am] |
Right now im in Business and Personal Financing...
mm sounds fun.
The weather here is SO incredibly nice
yesterday the high was 78...
which is so weird for me, in New York its still freezing!
Everything is going good...
when i came back to school we started a whole new schedule
cuz we do block scheduling so yeah
kinda sucks cuz i get all new classes but i have
World geography
Business and personal financing
Chem. honors
English honors
so ill be getting a ton of work...GREATTTT=]
omar and i are doing good...hes so cute lol
i was happy to see him when i got back
and see my mommy of courseee
my dad has this job with some like national company
and he travels a lot...its good but it does kinda suck
i mean him and i dont exactly get a long
so its good for him to be away...but i kindaa
miss him and im sure hes lonely...right now hes in Charolette i think
I still havent told my mom about omar...
i guess i really should
i mean i know shes not stupid, she knows we go out i just havent
confirmed it yet.
My birthdays in less then a month...i dont know why but for some
reason im like really excited, maybe cuz ill be 16=]
and amandas coming down! i love her hahah shes so funny
shes so like...gangsterrr=]
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[09 Jan 2006|09:45pm] |
i got back from new york last night
i cried alot when i left
its so hard for me to leave it
and leave everything i know behind.
When i went there i was expecting everything to be like it always was
but when i got there i had realized how everything had changed
and how i kept thinking 5 months wasnt that long, but i guess it was
it was so weird at first, being there and seeing everyone
the first night i got there i was with bec er n reg n kase
it was nice. i kinda felt awkward though...over the summer
reg and i were together like every single day, and im not even exaggerating.
then i get there and i almost felt uncomfortable around them,
which is so weird because they are my best friends. i dont know i cant
explain it. i stayed at gracies one night, which was so nice
nothing has changed at the valastros, which is good to know.
i love her family so much...i hung out with amanda too a couple times
shes gonna come down for my birthday, im pretty excited for that!
Theres a lot on my mind right now
about a lot of things.
I need to make some decisions...
like should i stop myself from being happy
to make someone else happy?
or should i just let go
and move on?
ah idk weird situation
lots of confusion.
im 15 and i dont want to deal with it.
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